Spiritual Musings.

Man I'm sekksy.


I've been thinking about starting going to church recently. Yes, I know...but why shouldn't I? Because when all is said and done I think, fundamentally I believe in God. I found my self having a conversation with myself last night that did develop into a prayer of sorts. So I should probably stop with all the blasphemy and shit.



Now before I worry you, I'd like to point out that I will never-repeat: never- become a 'God Botherer' and I wouldn't annoy other people with it. But I've been telling myself for years now that I don't like organised religion, but maybe that's just my way of getting out of the more self-sacrificing aspects of Christianity.

Actually, no. My primary school, if nothing else, taught me that a great fraction of Christians are tambourine bashing, leaflet pushing, judgemental, racist, morons. And, of course, historically, the church isn't exactly whiter than white.

So no, I won't go to church, but I'm definitely going to do something. Maybe though, even if God isn't real, it 's still some phsycological comfort to feel like there's someone watching your back. Perhaps random acts of kindness and benevolence would be worth more to God than joining the salvation army. Perhaps what all this means, is that I just want to try and be a better person.
God knows, really.



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